Quietude & Re-Discovery: An International Educator's Sabbatical Story


Guidance shared with me using Spirit Mama Oracle Deck


March 27, 2024

At the beginning of 2024, unforeseen circumstances nudged/forced me towards a period of self-rediscovery. While the initial months leading up to this moment carried a wave of emotions – sadness, confusion, disappointment, pain, and even shame – a sense of renewal began to gradually emerge in synchronicity with the turning of the seasons (winter to spring).



Throughout my career as an educator and administrator, both abroad and domestically, I've consistently poured my heart into social justice initiatives I believe in completely. Witnessing positive impacts on students continuously fueled my dedication, as evidenced each time the marketing campaigns #StudyAbroadSoBlack, #BeGlobalBeGrateful and #MoreBeyondTheHouse are Googled. I led the development of these “movements” at each HBCU and religious institution that I served. However, the relentless pace of passion eventually led to a longing for a more balanced life.


This unexpected break has become a blessing in disguise. As I settle in, I appreciate it as a chance to recharge, explore new possibilities, reconnect with loved ones and myself, and especially to actualize the many “passion projects” that took a backseat to the demands of my 9-5 commitments.

                                             

As this time of “sabbatical” takes root, I am energized as I free fall into everything that the universe has in store for me. I am in no rush to process, plan, or LIVE in ways I have not experienced since the days when I was living, working, studying abroad myself - before my mantra became: I am called to empower students and lead organizations in developing systems that thrive on inclusive, safe, sustainable, and efficient Education Abroad (EA) practices. At this time and in this place (the US), I would like to document a reflection of what I have been up to:

Acceptance - January: Embracing the Change

January unfolded with a quiet acceptance of the shifting sands beneath my feet. My daily routine was transformed, and uncertainty engulfed me, yet a deep faith held firm – a belief that even amidst the unknown, everything would ultimately find its way.

Processing Grief - February: Honoring the Loss

February, a month steeped in Black history, became a time for introspection and grieving. I allowed myself the space to feel the sting of loss, the initial shame washing over me. But within the embrace of my cherished community, a wave of affirmation and support washed away the negativity. Here, surrounded by these remarkable colleagues and friends, I released the burdens of self-doubt (disappointment, failure, immaturity) and embraced accountability. As my favorite Buddhist saying goes, my world is a reflection of me, and I take full responsibility for shaping it anew.

Instagram post on personal account on 2/28/2024

Pivoting to 'call in' the next best career/service opportunity that builds on my skill set and passion for advancing cross-cultural engagement/understanding, Black/Brown student development, and internationalization initiatives (especially at HBCUs) is a super vulnerable, yet exciting space to occupy right now. 


I just received these pics and they solidify the gratitude I have for the many exceptional colleagues I've met along my career journey thus far. Cheers to making more heart-centered, justice-oriented, life-giving connections in the work environment. That's my standard. #OpenToBeingGenerouslyCompensatedForQualityTime&Talent


Active Renewal - March: Charting a New Course

March whispered a call for action. I craved a change of scenery, the comfort of loved ones around me as I embarked on this journey of self-rediscovery. A multitude of questions arose, guiding my self-exploration (see below). I left for a three week stay in Los Angeles, California to feel the warmth of the matriarchs in my family, old school Howard friends, my dearest uncle and gorgeous cousins. Thereafter, I ventured back to my hometown of Denver to experience my oldest niece's hobbies, felt the support of my beloved father, stepmother, was teased and hosted by my little brother and his wife and deepened a connection with our family's precious new baby.

While away, I interviewed for a podcast, reconnected with the ICAP community, had an informational interview with the President of another local HBCU, started working with a Digital Content Coach, and explored Colorado with my sweetie - all between long walks, suntanning, cooking vegan meals, and most importantly, being a present part of the lives of people I only get the chance to see on rare occasion.


Active Engagement - April: Ecotherapy in Practice 

(Stay Tuned!)

This period of personal re-discovery might not have a predetermined timeline, but it's a journey filled with purpose. Equipped with renewed clarity and a diverse skill set, I'm eager to apply my experiences to contribute meaningfully to my local community and the world, be it through education, social justice initiatives, or a blend of both.


Gratitude and the energy of million sunflowers to all those who read this post.
~ Maraina






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